Journal, maybe you can help me out…..
It seems like lately my love has been shying away from me. I don’t get it. Maybe I am crushing her or too close, though becoming closer would be the final alchemy necessary for our union, maybe a baby even is how we should stay together. I tried to mention this to her but I don’t think she was so happy about that. She’s not home a lot when I come by and she hasn’t called for days and last time she said she wanted ‘a breather’.
What is a breather? Sounds to me like some stupid fucking self-help shit somebody fed to her to numb her to the real pulse of the world. I’ve told her over and over again how we need to be closer, not farther, that the time for something brilliant is at hand. She doesn’t believe it and says I should stop talking crazy, but what the fuck does she know. MAYBE SHE IS JUST LIKE THEM LIKE A FUCKING RAT///