She said YES!!!! I was so afraid to even ask her, I walked up to her and told her how I had seen her many times before, how she was glorious as the braids of Hera, how Penelope found her resurrection in those blue eyes, how the poppy and the daffodil were only chaff rolled away in her currents......And she first looked very afraid. I always rush these things, I always fuck it up. Still she listened, and her walls like Jericho fell - the reverberations of that breached barrier echoed across my dying lands. I smiled and in that smile I felt her gaze brighten and my eyes, they too brightened. I was forgiven. I was absolved and it all began again.
Does she love God? I don’t know.....I haven’t talked to her about God and about my calling, but I know she will believe, I know she will see my glories waiting to be revealed and we will marry and paint over these dirt monuments of past letdowns.
Can’t stop thinking about her.....so HAPPY!!!! OVERJOYED!!! JOY!! A long time since I have penned those letters together. We then exchanged numbers and she said, “You’re definitely unique...I want to find out more about you. Tomorrow then?”
And I almost jumped, but restrained my puppy body, and said, Yes, I’ll call you tonight. I talked to her all night, it’s like four in the morning now, no clocks though, so I’m just guessing. We’ve begun. Forgiven and released.
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